Saturday, February 2, 2008

im scared

Its a really gloomy morning today and though i try to be positive as much as i can, i think the morning is just too nostalgic. Clouds are darkened with its grayish blast and the breeze is cold like december mornings.

There are too much responsibilities to take on right now, personal and non-personal. And yeaterday, i almost felt like i was going to break down. But i held still cause there are things to do. Sometimes i hate it when i deprive myself of crying and breaking down. Palagi ko na lang pinagpapaliban, thats why when i get into the point where i really can't hold on, ayan na, di na ko titigil kakaiyak. But of course, there few good things naman kahit ganun na nangyayari, like i get stronger everytime, feel like i can win any battle kapag ganun.

People believe in me, thats why they had entrusted these responsibilities sa akin. And i dont want to disappoint them. I'll prove to them that i can really do this with excellence and pride. Self-destruct button is always around and any minute that i feel like pressing it i would. But for now, dapat akong maging matatag, di ako dapat bumigay specially now that everyone seems to be dweeling on my capabilities. I only pray to come out of this victoroius.

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