- MY HEART AND MY MIND-
Woke up this morning feeling so heavy. I thanked God for the day but as i uttered my prayers tears rolled down. There's something wrong. I feel weak today, vulnerable and ready to break down. Piece by piece i've soul-searched myself regarding this unpleasant feelings and it all comes down to one one thing--- IM DEPRESSED. Pressed with problems, preoccupied with worries and burried in sadness. There it goes... I finally admitted it. I am dead broken.
My heart is so full with sad feelings. So sad that it sucks out my energy for the day. No wonder why I've been acting crazy this past couple of weeks. But my mind is so strong that it could not be stooped from thinking of how and why the heck these things are happening right now.
IF MY HEART AND MIND COULD CONVERSE TO ANOTHER, SURELY THESE WORDS THEY'D TELL EACH OTHER.
DEAR MIND,
"I am heart. For years we've been living together in one man's body. We're actually next door neighbors. You live just above my block. I've always adored you. You are such a strong being. Everyday, you are working so fantastic. In fact you never stop working. I see you working in the lights of the day and even before the breaking of the dawn. You are so strong that i get intimidated by you. Remenber those times where we suffered through great trials? You stood strong amidst those thunders and floods while i cry in the corner and wait for the sun to come. I could not withstand such chaos. But you did. And i am so envious of you that time. You stayed firmed and invincible even after what had happened. Sometimes I wonder... How the hell did you get so strong that weakness is out of your sight? I applaud you for it. I really do.
I AM SORRY. Sorry for me being weak. That you have to work with me. I apologize for giving you so much worries. Sorry, beacuse of my innocence, i get to send you on a bloody arena. You stay up so late figuring out ways to heal me, but all i do is lie retlessly on the ground and wait for your rescue. I'm sorry that i cant help you. I'm sorry that I always make everything worse. You save me everytime and all the time that I've been weak you've been strong. Thank you for giving me reasons. Reasons that even i could not have thought of. I am way more capacitated than you are to withstand every trial but you are way stronger to contain every blow. I see you going home, with bruises and blood. I want to break down but i know you'd pity me for what rights do i have? I'm not the one who go through everything. Thank you. In times where every piece of the emotions gets too overwhelming and i can't seem to handle it myself, you are always there to support me even when you hve not rested enough. I make you suffer because of my weakness. And for that I am sorry. I really am."
Woke up this morning feeling so heavy. I thanked God for the day but as i uttered my prayers tears rolled down. There's something wrong. I feel weak today, vulnerable and ready to break down. Piece by piece i've soul-searched myself regarding this unpleasant feelings and it all comes down to one one thing--- IM DEPRESSED. Pressed with problems, preoccupied with worries and burried in sadness. There it goes... I finally admitted it. I am dead broken.
My heart is so full with sad feelings. So sad that it sucks out my energy for the day. No wonder why I've been acting crazy this past couple of weeks. But my mind is so strong that it could not be stooped from thinking of how and why the heck these things are happening right now.
IF MY HEART AND MIND COULD CONVERSE TO ANOTHER, SURELY THESE WORDS THEY'D TELL EACH OTHER.
DEAR MIND,
"I am heart. For years we've been living together in one man's body. We're actually next door neighbors. You live just above my block. I've always adored you. You are such a strong being. Everyday, you are working so fantastic. In fact you never stop working. I see you working in the lights of the day and even before the breaking of the dawn. You are so strong that i get intimidated by you. Remenber those times where we suffered through great trials? You stood strong amidst those thunders and floods while i cry in the corner and wait for the sun to come. I could not withstand such chaos. But you did. And i am so envious of you that time. You stayed firmed and invincible even after what had happened. Sometimes I wonder... How the hell did you get so strong that weakness is out of your sight? I applaud you for it. I really do.
I AM SORRY. Sorry for me being weak. That you have to work with me. I apologize for giving you so much worries. Sorry, beacuse of my innocence, i get to send you on a bloody arena. You stay up so late figuring out ways to heal me, but all i do is lie retlessly on the ground and wait for your rescue. I'm sorry that i cant help you. I'm sorry that I always make everything worse. You save me everytime and all the time that I've been weak you've been strong. Thank you for giving me reasons. Reasons that even i could not have thought of. I am way more capacitated than you are to withstand every trial but you are way stronger to contain every blow. I see you going home, with bruises and blood. I want to break down but i know you'd pity me for what rights do i have? I'm not the one who go through everything. Thank you. In times where every piece of the emotions gets too overwhelming and i can't seem to handle it myself, you are always there to support me even when you hve not rested enough. I make you suffer because of my weakness. And for that I am sorry. I really am."
YOUR FRIEND,
HEART
DEAR HEART,
"Hush now. And stop mentioning that you are weak because you are not. You are created to signify the sensitive side of every human being. You are supposed to be that way. Sensitive and delicate. That's why you have to be taken care of. And thats my job, to protect you. To shield you from unwanted emotions that i know could jeopardize you and the man we're living in. I work so hard not only to protect you but also to give you space. You won't be comfortable working in a cluttered space. Because you are meant to be free. Free to feel everything that you want to feel. Free to be who you want to be. You are so fragile that i should take my eyes ofo of you. I am here filter everything thats you've felt before the man who shelters us do his actions. Because his actions are the manifestations of how well i've worked. However, sometimes, it doesn't go so well.
I AM SORRY. I dont't feel like I am doing the greatest job on earth. I make you suffer more and the man we're living in as well. When a man has done his actions, an opposite actions comes after it, and when it does, I see you cry. And it hurts me more. You are suffering because of me. You are absorbing everything that I have thrown out. So stop saying that you make me suffer because you certainly don't. I should be the one apologizing because of what I'm doing to you. The bruises i get is less painful than your scratches. Evrytime I make the wrong decisions, you cry and you suffer which you are not supposed to. You should be happy, and i feel awful for depriving you for being one because of my poor work. I am sorry heart. But thank you, because you never leave by my side. Though you refuse to put up a fight, i still see a strong spirit in you that I don't have. I see a soft way of yours, anticipating victory during battles. And you are beautiful that way. That gives me strength to do better. Inspires be to think wiser. I hate seeing you cry. I just want you to know that. I could not be happier that we are here together. We are a perfect balance. I wouldn't to have any other teammate. You are meant to be this way, and so am i. Otherwise, we this man that we're living in right now... have given up all hid fights. Cheer up, no matter how imperfect we are, we still give him the right reasons to move forward, and thats a sign that we're not doing the worst job after all.
YOUR FRIEND,
MIND
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